I finally watched the DVD of Outside The Wire from beginning to end.

It is strange to watch.It was harder to log the tapes and edit it.  Imagine, a first person filming of 5 months of your life then having to watch it.

The tape where I rode past an IED or stacked up with the guys as they hit a target house creates a peculiar emotional response.  When I was filming everything in Iraq, I was numb, almost emotionless, so 'in the moment' that I was oblivious to the dangers around me.Watching those scenes on tape, I experienced the emotions I should have felt while on the mission.